The voice

There is a voice inside my head that won't go away. Most of the time, especially those times when I am actually busy enough to ignore it, I have even believed it goes away. Then when I am all alone or have pms or hurting or just am tired of dealing with everything it comes back.

This voice wants me to kill myself. This voice is also the one that tells me that everyone who tells me they love me is lying, that I would be better off going through life without any contact with another human being, ever. I call it Sagitarius simply because part of those traits are Sagitarius traits. The idea that I can do things alone, the idea of being firery inside and not caring what other people think. But, if you keep reading this you will also find there is another side, called Gemini. Gemini constantly wants to be around people. She is happiest with friends, and likes to entertain. I believe she is also the one that is keeping me from hurting myself.

I don't want to die. I want to LIVE and THRIVE. You may think that I'm thinking this way because I had a bad day. But the truth is I didn't. I had a meeting where people told me they were very glad to have me around. I talked to a friend who tells me he loves me. I want to be hear for them and so much more. I don't know what to do. HELP!!!