Competing Sides in the Same Person

I have no idea how to write this. The truth is, I'm not sure if I even want to talk about it at all, for fear that I will be laughed out of blogger. But is that really possible? I really shouldn't care what other people think, but yet at the same time I do....Ugh...And there in lies the problem

I know what your thinking, and no, this is not a post about whether or not I should care what other people think. This is a post about the two sides of my brain; the left, and the right, the Sagittarius and the Gemini. These two argue now stop with each other, and are the prime reason if not the only reason I can't sleep at night. You may be thinking "now I know she's crazy, I mean, aren't people that hear voices crazy?" And that's not what I'm talking about. I do not have, have never had, nor ever will have, schizophrenia. I know people that have this, and quite literally, I at times believe it is worse then the RSD. The person that has this disagrees with me, and says neither is better or worse, they are just different, but I don't know. Somehow the idea of hearing voices in your head telling you to do horrible things to yourself and others just seems well...horrible. There is enough people in this world who try to destroy people, let alone a person wanting to destroy themselves.

What I'm talking about are the two main types of "hats" that I wear. As I said before, I call the one Sagittarius, and the other, Gemini. This is done for very specific reasons. If you don't know anything about astrology, let me explain.

Many people think that because newspaper and teen magazine horoscopes are so often wrong, that astrology must not be a real or good thing to study. What most people do not understand is that what people are asking when they say "what's your sign" (it's a stupid pick up line in my book, so don't ever try to do ask, because I'll come back to you with "my sun sign is Sagittarius while my rising sign is Gemini) they are talking about your sun sign. This is because the sun only moves into new houses (new signs) once a month on a pretty much set schedule. Your sun sign is an extremely important part of who you are, but not all of who you are. My sun sign, as you read above, is Sagittarius.

Then there is your rising sign. Your rising sign and your sun sign work together to make a basic outline of a person. My rising sign is Gemini. Now, if you don't understand the problem here, let me explain. Gemini and Sagittarius are what's called polar opposites, meaning they are on the opposite end of the sign chart (they are six months apart). This makes any relationship where the two of them must work together extremely difficult.

Well, unfortunately my RSD keeps me up at all hours, and any time I feel I can get any amount of sleep I should do it. Therefore I will finish this idea in another blog, or part two of "competing sides in the same person". See you there!

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