It's going to get a little gross in here...

I had to warn you ahead of time. So if you still read this even after my warning, don't say I didn't tell you so.

I'm constantly constipated. It's one of the side affects from my pain medication, but at the same time it's something I've dealt with my entire life. I can literally go WEEKS without moving my bowels: no exaggeration.

Why am I telling you this? Because the problem doesn't come in the waiting to go to the bathroom. The problem comes when you finally actually go to the bathroom. Pushing that thing out is a HORRIBLE FEELING, one that I don't wish on anyone even for one moment. What's worse is it makes the pain in my legs worse.

I shouldn't say that the problem doesn't come with the waiting. Sometimes there are problems with the waiting. First there's the fact that your stomach literally grows bigger. I'm literally full of shit sometimes. Then there's after you take the laxative and it starts to move down and the stomach ache and the pain in the ass...literally....it's still there right now....

I'm so tired of my life and I just wanted you to experience the grossness of it as well. So I beg you, please, for the love of god, don't ever ask why I hate my body, ever again.