Wanting to be Wanted

I think everyone has the need to feel wanted. Often, a job, a significant other, and some friends fullfill that need. The problem with me, however, is that these things often come at some sort of physical price. Allow me to explain.

Because of my illness, I spend more time in my house then outside. Anything that I do needs to be carefully calculated against how bad my pain will be the next couple days, or even weeks, after I participate in that activity. Unfortunately, this often ends up in me not being able to do as much as "normal person" and thus, I'm feeling rather well.....unwanted.

I do things as often as I can, however it always seems like I'm hit with that inevitable "but". For example, a couple weeks ago I had an interview for a job. I wasn't hired. Seems that they wanted someone with more experiance then I have. My question is, how am I supposed to get experiance when the jobs that would give me experiance won't hire me becasue they want experiance? It's a maddening circle that I'm tired of.

The other but often comes when I persue someone who I want to date. It seems that my illness adds way to much "baggage". What they don't realize is that everyone has baggage. Still, they have a point. It would be hard to take care of me on days that the pain is too hard to handle.

I'm just tired of the "buts"...I would hire you but...I would go out with you but....I'm tired of hearing it. I want someone to say "You would be perfect to hire, welcome abord" or "I think your great, why don't we try this"....

I guess I just have to keep waiting and hope I don't get too many more buts...

blessed be,

artistinme82

p.s. 2,455 soldiers have died in the war in Iraq and it has cost us $283,167,470,110. It's time for this to stop, and get our troops out of their. Who's with me?!?